"I Used To Drive Myself Crazy and Cry Myself To Sleep Every Night Wondering..."


"I used to drive myself crazy every day and cry myself to sleep every night wondering if you were talking to someone else, wondering what I could be doing wrong, wondering if you even cared.


You would treat me like crap, push me away, yet I would still take you back every time, whenever it was convenient for you. Whenever you just wanted or needed something from me. I accepted your blatant lies, I made excuses for your bad behavior, I gave you chance after chance after chance.

No matter what you put me through, I didn't want to give up on you. I put up with so much because I foolishly believed that one day you would see the error of your ways and change to be the person I expected you to be. The person who actually wanted a future with me, the person who actually gave a damn about me. Sadly, I loved you so much that I lost myself waiting for you to change.


Fortunately, over time I came to realize that it wasn't my fault, that there is nothing I can do to change you. That is just who you are and always will be. I realized I fell in love with someone you just sometimes pretended to be. I realized that I deserve much more than you will ever be willing to provide. I found the strength and learned to love myself enough to leave, permanently. You taught me to no longer accept less than I deserve."




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